ok i'm in class now.

i have to invigilate a 1hr30mins compre test.

and i'm very very bored because

a) i have nothing much to mark at the moment, just a lot of other things to do. and all these other things can't be done while invigilating.

b) it's too early in the morning to be doing serious work. my brain is still hibernating.

c)i'm still very tired after the church outing to the zoo yesterday.

thus, i am sitting in front of my laptop and pretending to be planning my lesson or whatever with the computer while surfing the blogs of other people. ah yes, and i decided to revisit some older entries from my previous blog.

and i came across this.

on 5th april '05 i wrote "new class now..1aa2..it's not too bad. the ppl there are really nice and it's quite fun too..yup yup. so hopefully it will be a really fun experience in that class."

it's quite funny to read it now, and actually realise that 2aa2 turned out to be the fun, crazy, noisy, whacky class that i expected it to be, and so much more.

and also, reading my older entries has made me realise how much i have matured. *ahem* yes, i have! it almost irks me to read about the things i thought about or said back then, because right now, after JC, a lot of our perspectives have changed. we no longer live merely from day-to-day, hoping to scrap through our exams with whatever last minute work we've crammed in. instead, most of us have now had a taste of the working life or army, for the guys. and now the decisions we make have a much greater impact on our future than before. now, we think further ahead. for most of us, when we select our courses in university or even our universities for that matter, we can practically see our careers slowly falling into place. and all the wishful ambitions that we've had since we were children such as "mummy, i want to be an astronaut!!" "mummy, i want to be a rockstar!!" "mummy, i want to be a tai tai!!" slowly begin to disappear. save for maybe the "tai tai" part though, for the so-called lucky few who have filthy rich boyfriends :)

ah yes, and so the saying goes.

"like sands through the hour glass, so are the days of our lives"

hah. talk about corny.

hey pretty (:

ahhhh....

a thought struck me today:

i'm at the PRIME of my youth.

yes, the PRIME.

ah, i should live life to the fullest now, this should be the moment.

but then again, that could mean being foolish, worldly and selfish.

thus, i shall try my utmost best abstain from 'fleshly lusts' as 1 Peter aptly put it.

still, it's a comforting and thrilling thought to be at the PRIME of your youth - the age where your parents begin to let go and you begin to start being more of yourself and less of who everyone wants you to be. SWEET (:

on a sidenote: tv serials can be so insightful. (and i'm not just saying this from a bimbotic point of view)

those were the days

these are the days of endless dreamin'

troubles of life are floatin' away like a bird of flight

haha that's us at sports day i.e. the relief teachers.

yay i love my 4gy shirt!! "4gy... is like whoa."






i stole those photos from charissa wong's blog. heh. i bet she doesn't even know that i read her blog. it's quite fun to read about people that you used to know, and to see how they have changed, and then to catch up with them again finally after so long. and as they tell you about the things they have done etc, all you can do is try your best to hide that knowing smile. nahaha. sneaky eh?

now you know.

well, my time at sc is slowly coming to an end. 1 and a half more months! honestly, i can't wait to be out of work and to be unemployed, to have no obligations, commitments whatsoever. on the other hand, i know i'll miss my students. they have made life a challenge for the past 4 months and it'll be hard not to see them everyday once all this comes to an end. well for now, i just want to be over and done with all the marking, keying in of CA marks and mundane yet stressful demands of this job. yup, alas, this has become a job, no longer something that i look forward to. however, there are many things to be thankful for. like how the craziest, noisiest 14 year olds and turn into the sweetest, most grateful and teachable human beings just when you least expect it. such things do make your day (:

a question has been lingering at the back of my mind for the past few days;

is it ok to hurt someone in order to protect yourself?
does it make you self-centered or is it only right that you do so? is it only permissible when you want to prevent yourself from hurting the other person even more? or is it just a defence mechanism that prevents you from hurting yourself even more?

Oh, would you please get out from under my skin?
'Cause I can't begin this yet
And I don't know what my intentions are
They're speaking in a different tongue
And, deep inside, I'm not as tough as I seem
But I won't let you know
Until it's right, I'm gonna stay my distance, and you should go
Oh, would you please get out
I'm not as strong as I seem, but I won't let you know

hmm i'm supposed to be marking lit tests now. but i decided to blog about this before i forget.

last thurs, jamie angie tiff adrian yap karl and me went to genting-kl-jb. i haven't been to malaysia in awhile but i must say that i've forgotten how impossible it was to feel completely away from singapore because of the huge similarities between both countries. the people, the shopping centres, the food. mehh. anyway, despite that, i must say we had wicked fun :D i've never been on a holiday with such crazy and weird people before. and being around 6 psychotic people for 4 days and 3 nights was the best part about the entire experience. yay! let's go on another holiday everyone! (:

a little bird in a nest jamie found (:

praying not to die as jamie-the-motion-master drives us around her neighbourhood (no, she did not drive us to kl, thankfully!!)

come on, pose for my camera baby.

yes karl, show us how it's done

HELP!!!

boys are stupid. heh.

yes! i finally overcame my fears with this ride.

one of my favourite photos.
(i have no idea what jamie and adrian are doing.)

:)

i'm feeling happy :D

YAY.

after yesterday's results, all i can say is THANK YOU GOD for making a way (:

and to every single one of you in 2AA2, i am extremely proud of you. we worked so hard from being the noisiest, most playful class who ate at every single lesson to a class that did well together. i love you and i'm thankful for all of you.

especially to tiff, angie and jamie, i'm so happy that all 4 of us did well together even though we goofed around a lot and did silly things that were potentially a waste of very important studying time eg. singing and dancing in the nl til mario came to lock up. heh.

and also, thank you ms sng for being sooooo amazingly anal retentive because we got the lowest msg in the entire school for GP :D

results tmr!!

i've been trying not to think about it, but this morning i woke up and it hit me. tmr could change a lot of things in my life. however, the world will not stop spinning and life will not come to an end. even if i do badly in the world's eyes, i know it will still be according to God's plan. that's definitely a comforting thought.

hmm. and i've also been thinking about what to wear tmr. how insignificant and bimbotic, i know, but i remember some poorly dressed people going up onstage last year. not that i think i will get to shake kelvyna's hand but yea, i would like to avoid certain shirts that could potentially make me look like a loser. for instance, my 'i love tv' shirt and my 'clever island' shirt. if the results turn out to be less than expected, many unfortunate deductions could be made.

oh i also checked out the ikea at tampines today. it's AWESOME. i love it. it's so huge and my favourite part is the warehouse part. i love the sky high shelfs and rows and rows of furniture still in their boxes, and the lovely smell of fresh wood. mmm. i must say that the ikea restaurant lacks variety though, but i absolutely love everything that ikea has. they all look yummy. yes, even the non-edible shoeboxes, quilts and candlesticks (:

ok all the best for tmr everyone!!

here's a collage of random photos from last year that i found in my phone.

my personal favorite is the one of lancey's trademark move (:

hello i'm blogging. in the staffroom. wahaha. i feel like a really happening teacher. no, i know i am. heh. so much for humility.

i have never liked tell all blogs.

eg. today i went to the zoo. first, we went to the rabbit enclosure. we pet the rabbits. then we fed them.....(5 paragraphs later).......the giraffes are so cute!! they kept eating leaves and making weird noises. next, we went to the polar bear enclosure etc etc.

RAH. i tend to skim through such blogs. i'm like get over your life!

the next kind of blogs which irk me are ah lianzzz blogs.

eg. 2dae me n ah bao went 2 arcade. we played para para. lollxx. ah bao is supa hipzz manzz. he beat me at all levels. ah bao u rox manzz!! i luv u 4eva. kekexx. i tell you ah, we will get married one loh. if we dun ah then i surely cannot tahan and i will diezz.hehexx juz kiddin manz.

AHH. i get goosebumps reading such blogs. in fact i spent such a long time typing that cos i had to force myself to be ah lianzz manzz. i don't understand how typing like that is cool. it's like saying failing is cool. mehh. i'm elitist, i apologise.

the third kind of blogs that i don't like are blogs full of 'look at me i'm so hot' pictures. eeeeyer. get over yourself!!

hmm. ok i'm done complaining about bloggers for today. i must say that i do enjoy blog surfing though. velda calls me a voyeur. and unfortunately, i must admit that i am. oops.

A LEVEL RESULTS ON FRIDAY. and we thought that day would never come. well, the good thing is that i don't have school from weds to friday cos it's activities week!! yay. i'll have 3 days to relax before results. thank you God (:

ok i better go before the principal walks in and accuses me of wasting the school's lan resources. heh. relief teachers do have their perks after all.

there is something wrong with blogger. i can't seem to log in although i have switched my account to the new gmail version. thus, i'm using gmail now to blog. how interesting. once again, i feel like a frog in a well.

well the chinese new year period has come and gone once again. jia han and i were talking about how there is less visiting as we grow older..and it is largely due to the fact that our parents are getting older or most of the elderly have passed on. so less people = more slack for us young ones. *a warped kind of happiness fills my heart*. oh dear, i'm turning into a rotten person.

the past few days, however, have reminded me of how important family is, and how little time i have set aside for the most important people in my life. the same people who will love me unconditionally and accept me for who i am. my cousins and i were playing 'have you ever', a sort of tell all game and we realised how disgusting everyone was and also shared some personal issues. that was how i found out how kind and loving they were. haha. especially after i had cleaned out some skeletons in my closet.

life does pass you by rather quickly and pretty soon we will all be in and out of uni and working to make a living. it does feel good to live off your parents (for now). heh. i'm a total bum, i know. so anyway, i have decided to make a list of everything that i would like to do before uni.

1)try wakeboarding

2)go rockclimbing in singapore

3)go on a holiday with my friends

4)have a lot of sleepovers and movie marathons

5)develop a proper work out routine

6)learn how to cook

7)read more books, particularly christian books and classics

8)buy an acoustic guitar

9)(overseas) community service

10)get involved in missions

my blog is beginning to look a little bare.

thus, i've decided to add some photos from last year, mostly from my trip to Australia (:

oh and i've stepped out of my cave recently and downloaded picasa. so i took the liberty to edit some photos.

yay.

solution pools (once a geog student, always a geog student. heh.)

part of the great ocean road. taken from a helicopter. (yes! i got to ride in one!)
a lonely stack.
how come every time you come around my London London Bridge wanna go down?
a nice beach.
an arch (:
another shot from the helicopter.this photo is gorgeous. heh.
yes, aussies do love their alcochol.whee!!

my sister. haha.

i think these were seals. or maybe sea lions. or seals. or sealions. i'm not sure.

even dogs enjoy starbucks.

i took this shot!! i think it's emo. heh.
yay (:

and last but not least,

all i want you to do is be my love.

i think that my life is awfully boring these days. it's like how it used to be -- school, home, school, home, school, home. minus the dreaded tuition classes and *cough* CCA, which i will not mention. and of course, minus all my crazy 2aa2 playmates. haha. wai ling says that word connotates too many suggestive meanings at this age. but really, i mean it in the most innocent of ways, because everyone in 2aa2 was a kid. the word child-like doesn't even come close, i believe we were more like childish. heh. and now, without all of you guys, 19 suddenly feels a whole lot older and maybe, wiser.

sigh. having dinners at least once a week with old friends from sc and ac does make life a lot less monotonous but still, i miss sitting in the canteen and just chatting about the most useless things in the world and laughing about the silliest things. i miss running around the ac track and cracking jokes with mark ng. i miss the quirkiness of all the random ac teachers and jumping up and down in the NL after school, pretending to be rock stars and film stars. i even miss assembly because of the weirdest videos that were put together and i miss sitting in front of 2aa3 and 2aa1 and interacting with random people in the arts fac. i miss all these and more.

so rumour has it that the A level results will be out in one or two weeks time. and just as unprepared as i was for the As, i feel once again, completely unprepared for this.

p.s. i hope none of my students find my blog.

so the new year has begun. a lot of new things have begun. i am no longer a school girl. raaar. in fact, i now have to teach school girls. how ironic. it's funny how i remember feeling too young to take the As and now suddenly i feel like super old. like prematurely aged. this is what exams and war lit do to you.

in a very brief summary of all that has happened since, december was a fantastic month. finally, i could breathe better and feel more carefree (whenever i think of that word, i think of the brand of you know what. and 'whisper' does that to me too. who thinks of these names for such things!!) anyway to put it simply, the trip to australia was really good. a good time to catch up with the family both the immediate, and the one in australia. plus, the checking up of unis in australia and the daily feasting. i promise, it was really feasting. like a HUGE meal every single night i was in melbourne. although strangely, i did not put on weight. i tell you, it's been ac food that has been fattening me up. boy am i glad i'm not eating that food everyday now (:

i must say, i do miss schooling. yes nutty, i do!! it is definitely not easy being a teacher even if it's only for a couple of months. i would much rather sit down in class and be chatting with my classmates or doing something sneaky under the table like messaging or passing notes or playing bingo. sigh. those were the days. you know what! now i really feel old!! i thought only parents said those were the days. actually the reality of aging really set in when my students starting calling me Ms Lim and my juniors started greeting me. i was so irked by it that i had goosebumps everytime it happened for the first week.

anyway this year, i have decided that with more time on my hands, i will try to be more involved in church activities and step up in my commitment to God. the future is especially uncertain now, with uni ahead and the pending release of the A level results. to be honest, i am dreading the day when they are released. i think i lack faith in myself. so i guess, the best thing i can do is to entrust everything to God and to leave it in His hands.

i haven't updated in a long time. hmm. but then again, who ever said that i had to update regularly? makes you wonder if you update for people to read or if you update for yourself. and if i don't want to update for myself then so be it. ha. this is retarded why am i arguing with myself.

anyway so i've decided, since tomorrow is the start of the A levels. yes, THE A LEVELS (it's here!! nooooo...) i shall blog since it's probably significant enough a milestone in my life. sigh, my very short 18 years of youth and i have to face this? somehow i don't even feel half as prepared as i was for the Os. now i wonder, is it because of the sheer amount of content that i have to cover or because i just didn't study hard enough. and if it is the latter, i really wonder now, what will happen if i screw up the As and don't end up going to uni. i'll be worse off than a poly grad who has a diploma. argh....no....

but one must face up his fears and yes tomorrow i shall take on GP like it's my 2nd prelims. but then, everytime i tell myself that this little, annoying voice at the back of my head goes "if you screw this up, you screw everything up" and then again, the As aren't necessarily the end, as a teacher once said during chapel. they are in fact, a very small part of your life. well, ok maybe in 15 years time after i first survive the As.

and so tomorrow is GP. argh, GP. does it have to be so hard? it's a breeze for some people but for me, the stuctured questions always get me. somehow, my brain isn't able to read between the lines. why!! i know i'm not stupid..i mean i got past the Os pretty easily..hmm. my sister asked me today, "GP is like english right?" and i said, "no!! it's a lot harder" and it made me think about english. life was much easier then, when it was just english and essays didn't have to be 1. thesis statement 2. example 3.explain 4. evaluate. since when did we need a formula for an essay? i thought formulas only existed in science.

hmph. ok enough rambling. life must go on and i must go back to studying oh yes, the 'general paper' that turns out to be rather specific and structured.

all the best to me, and most of all, i know i will have to depend on God for this one, just as with everything else of course (:

i cannot stand it when people don't bother to ask me out in a nice way.

if you want to ask me out, at least ask nicely, and i don't demand this because i think that i'm super important or something. it's just common basic courtesy. you don't ask people out like you're asking them because you have nothing better to do. and you most certainly do not ask them out like they're your shopping bag or an accessory you must have whenever you go out.

moreover, i cannot stand it when guys whistle at girls like they're some animal. it's degrading and it makes us feel cheap. so what if you're a guy, you should have the decency to treat the opposite sex with some respect, even if you do something as shameless as squatting by the roadside to check girls out. haha. cheekopek.

so much for a ranting session! i'm not feeling that angsty. i think i just needed to let some heat off cos my skin is burning from the sunburn! :(

serves me right.boo.

yay! prelims are ending prelims are ending prelims are ending!!

one more day to go and guess who already had pre-end-of-prelims celebration!!

haha. went to sentosa with jamie and angie today!! had the most awesome time ever....felt like we escaped to paradise for a day in the midst of our crazy exams (although too much credit can't be given to sentosa for being a paradise). heh. so yup we soaked up the sun, did synchro swimming, waded a lot in the water and drank some disgusting sea water, crossed over to the 'southern most point of asia' to make stupid videos and then crossed back to mainland singapore and SMACK back into the exam mode. haha. not really. but well technically exams are more or less over cos only e8 is left and you can't really study for it. haha.

i can't wait for prelims to be over!! raaaaaaar. freedom here i come! (:

this is how we all looked before we came redder than tomatos!

(although you can't really tell cause it's sepia. heh.)

that's how i'm feeling about PRELIMS!!!!!!!

it's DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!!!!!!

2 more weeks 2 more weeks 2 more weeks...i can do this i can do this i can do this......

man i just realised that this is only prelims..WHAT ABOUT As!!

woo hooo. i might as well just admit myself into IMH now. wheee (:

and i realise that my previous entry looks like fruitloops.i'm ashamed of myself.i need to send myself to the corner for being utterly embarrassing.

haha yay i'm 18!! (:

i'm legal i'm legal i'm legal!

and yet, i don't feel 18.

(and yes, i still do feel younger then i should be, maybe it's cos of the uniforms thing!!)

it's officially 10 days before the prelims, and i must say to all my friends, you guys are simply awesome!! cos it's like 10 days to prelims and you bothered to stay up to do stuff for me!! haha you guys rock! i promise i'll never forget you even if i become like ultra-mega-super-duper-kuku when i'm 80!!

haha yup and i received like 3 cakes and a slice of cheesecake today (: the most ever so far so yup i will not only put on a lot of weight on top of my already don't-exercise-regularly schedule but i will also remember all the effort that went into making this day ultra special for me (:

so my friends and family did stuff for me, and i figured at around 10pm that i had to do something for myself. so i trotted off to the nearest 7-11 and bought myself some *ahem* alcohol. and no, i'm no heavy drinker, so it was just raspberry vodka with 6% alcohol for starters. i know that now i look like such a NERD but it was just for fun!! $6.40 wasted on cheap thrill. ha. plus it tasted like cough syrup and i've tasted better. (oops, did i say i've tasted better?)

yay, once again, thanks everyone for making my day and giving me a great start to my 18th year. love you all (:

p.s today i saw a guy who had hotter legs than his girlfriend. ouch.