wow. it's one week left of the hols and then school starts, leaving us with 4 days of june before july starts, which then leaves us with a month to prelims. AHHH. and then BAM, it's the As. i feel too young to be sitting for my As.

do you sometimes feel like you're not supposed to be 18 yet? like this whole 'i'm 18 and legal thing' is just numbers, but not reality? i mean you watch all these american shows and the kids seem way more mature at 18, plus they don't wear school uniforms, they can drive and they act a whole lot more like adults than we do. i find it hard to believe that i only have 2 more years of my teenage years when i still feel so freaking young.

it's hard to believe that in 3 years, i'll be 21 and in 1 or 2 more years, having my first job. i still feel like i'm just a kid trying to find my way around.

do you blame it on the singaporean system of 'let's all wear uniforms to feel nice and equal til we're 18 and old enough to learn how to tolerate one another without uniforms' or just on the fact that we live in this small, myopic nation that's so overly protected by the govt, hence we've never felt an urgent need to grow up and learn quickly?

i wonder. i really do.

and then again, maybe we just think that the grass is always greener on the other side.

well back to my books then, since i can't see very far beyond my As as of yet and still feel like a clueless school girl.